I love that my boyfriend still asks me on dates even though we live together and do everything together. Makes me feel all smiley and giddy and I love having a reason to dress all cute =))
I’m missing you so much, I’ll say you died tonight….just so I can get to you before the sun will rise. You had me at hello <3
In less than 24 hours, I will not only be in the same time zone but I’ll be 1,284 miles closer to my best friend. Words cannot express how absolutely excited beyond words I am. My heart always feels like its missing something without him being a15 minute drive away anymore. I’m so excited I can’t even sleep right now when I should be. Please let 10oclock tomorrow night come a little bit faster and let this weekend drag on for what feels like forever.
I know I shouldn’t have. But you lied right to my face. I’m not sure how much yet. But you better believe in the morning….I’m finding out as much as I can. Happy fucking birthday to me. Oh and welcome home. 2012 seems to be off to a real good start.
On this day, you read something that moved you and made you realise there were no more fears to fear. No tears to cry. No head to hang in shame. That every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that. That everyone and everything lives on inside you. That that doesn’t make any of it any less real.
That soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than hard ones.
That being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with. That the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them. That everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.
That you control that completely.
That the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. That you laugh more than you cry. That crying is good for you. That the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.
That your friends are reflections of the best parts of you. That you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. That dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.
That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. That no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them. That what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such. That the difference between a job and art is passion. That neither defines who you are. That talking to strangers is how you make friends.
That bad days end but a smile can go around the world. That life contradicts itself, constantly. That that’s why it’s worth living.
That the difference between pain and love is time. That love is only as real as you want it to be. That if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around.
That the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. That nothing matters up until this point. That what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. Forever. That rain is beautiful.
And so are you.
The world is just an ugly place. I’m seriously sick to my stomach just thinking about everything going on. I found out this weekend my aunt most likely has breast cancer and a guy I went to high school with committed suicide. Truly, my heart aches today….
I just want to be with my best friend. I don’t want to talk about meaningless and pointless guys I spend my time with and I don’t want to hear about girls that you spend your time with. I hate feeling like we are wasting so much time.
